Howl A Little Louder Just Don't Spit In My Mouth

by Sold Ash

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1.	Silver Foyer 03:53	lyrics	buy track
I just don’t know where I’m at My body is wrapped in plastic And I’m hanging upside down The trees are all silver It reflects the sun in my eyes. My eyes are closed so speak to me I’m begging you please don’t go Silver Shiny Foyer Silver Shiny Foyer There’s nothing left to do here Besides looking straight into your eyes These flowers have turned into concrete There is nothing left to hide I’m wrapped in foil By the trees Reminiscing My body is numb I’m attracted to dust I’m begging you please just go Silver Shiny Foyer Silver Shiny Foyer
2.	Electric Fragile Self 06:29	lyrics	buy track
I don’t know how to say this because I don’t know how you feel I can see there’s something really special about you but I still don’t know how you feel I just don’t know what to say I feel less beautiful today I am rude and jealous and sometimes insane I am rude and jealous and sometimes insane Self-doubt is the end of me Self-doubt is the end of us I feel less beautiful today I am less beautiful today I am rude and jealous and sometimes insane I am rude and jealous but there’s beauty in my brain Daylight coming in with a panic attack I don’t wanna suffer anymore Electric fragile thoughts with an open-mind Take my hand we’ll be the best of friends gnihtyreve gnikcuf gnisilamron elpoep tub I don’t know what that’s all about Do they still have one more chance to try again? They say trial and error is what it’s all about Brain dead and stopped thinking about anything I’ll let my phone take over once again
3.	Avoid 05:28	lyrics	buy track
I don’t really wanna fall again Back, back baby Let’s start all over again I don’t really wanna see it again Back with the story Cuz this is where it ends Slow Fuck it all up one more time It doesn’t really matter cuz it’s all just you and I Shhhht You and I both we’re sitting right here We don’t know what to say So just look through my hair Avoid Forget where it’s from Where does it breathe? It’s already done I don’t really mind Forget what? What has all been said? I don’t really wanna feel it again Back, back baby Let’s start this all again Back I don’t really wanna see that again Back with the story Let’s start this all again I don’t really wanna go again But this is where you’d go But for only one more time It’s back a little It’s back again You don’t know what to feel It’s coming all the time
4.	Howl A Little Louder 03:15	lyrics	buy track
There’s something really bad out here Is something really bad okay? I see your reflection over here I don’t know what to do I don’t know what to feel You don’t even feel the slightest tinge I still see a little huddle over here Is something really bad okay? Is something really bad okay? You’re not going back This is how it is This is really really really how it really is You want this to be You want this to be You want this to be because there's nowhere else where you'll feel free You want this to be You want this to be You want this to be because there's nowhere else where you'll feel free There’s something really bad out here Is something really bad okay? I feel a little tension over here Howl a little louder just don't spit in my mouth You don’t even feel the slightest tinge while there’s something really special over here There’s something really special over here There’s something really special over here You’re not going back This is how it is This is really really really how it really is You want this to be You want this to be You want this to be because there's nowhere else where you'll feel free You want this to be You want this to be You want this to be because there's nowhere else where you'll feel free You gotta howl Howl Howl a little louder just don’t spit in my mouth You gotta howl Howl Howl a little louder just don’t spit in my mouth You gotta howl Howl Howl a little louder just don’t spit in my mouth
5.	Intuitive Dog 05:50	lyrics	buy track
See it’s one to be It’s really gonna be I just wanna see It’s coming back to me You don’t wanna see it’s coming back (again to you) I just wanna live It’s coming in the shape of you This dog has gone gay and I have gone stale I just wanna be a little kid again Do ya feel it’s here again? ‘cuz I don’t really know I just wanna understand what is going on A Vision Repetition Repetition Television Recognition Death
6.	Puppy Runt 03:06	lyrics	buy track
Overthink, think about people Perfect stain increases whatever You Think about the things, don’t think about the people In my room I’m getting closer to evil things Closer to evil Closer to EVOL I’ve been born to get out Conversation could get old Whining beer I really wanna get out Catch a ride and take me home I’m still here I’m getting bored It’s getting cold It’s getting old Think about things, don’t think about the people In my room I’m getting closer to evil things Closer to evil
7.	Surrender 06:59	lyrics	buy track
The air feels strange Body dream - dream body Self-centred, teenage pornstar Use to be a bitch But it’s just in my head Don't kill Don't kill Surrender Don't kill Don't kill Surrender Looking for something in nothing Finding dust A wind That masks the sound of the Somerset bell A sound that makes me nervous Don't kill Don't kill Surrender Don't kill Don't kill Surrender Don't kill Don't kill Surrender Don't kill Don't kill Surrender

about

Hello :)

I can’t begin to describe how it feels to share this project with you. It has taken me just over two years to write and shape these songs, which is much longer than what I initially intended. This album is an absolute dream come true for me - I am 26 now, and I’ve been trying/praying/wishing/dreaming for this project to become a reality since I was 13.

For me, making an album is a very overwhelming process - it's a volatile and frustrating endeavour. You need an immense amount of patience, determination, drive and passion to finish off a project of this sort and then you still need to (or would like to at least) remain content with the whole thing, whether it’s the process, or the outcome. The inconsistent emotional spirals that such a project triggers due to the deep-rooted and (sometimes mysterious) personal topic matters are also something to get a hold of within itself.

’Howl A Little Louder Just Don’t Spit In My Mouth’ is a story that explores the complexities of mental instability and feeling out of place and overwhelmed in a world driven by capitalism and productivity. It also dives into my process of self-healing, dealing with people that were close to me who became a manifestation of personality disorders such as narcissism, as well as grieving a past lover and reflecting back on my own toxicity towards others.

Whether the album is written from personal experience is irrelevant, as the lyrics rather aim to be a response to the topics from an empathetic perspective, with a message that encourages awareness of mental illness and self-healing.

Nonetheless, creating music has and will always be my favourite thing to do in this life of mine, and I'm very excited to share HALLJDSIMM.

Ruan x

credits

released August 26, 2022

• Written, performed and produced by Ruan Vos (Sold Ash)
• Drums performed by Dolf Lombard
• Saxophone on track 5 by Pieter Labuschagne
• Choir on track 2 is: Denise Onen, Lauren Thomas, Chelsea Ann Peter, Karen Louw, Frankie Marais, Caroli Burger
• Guest vocalist Chelsea Ann Peter on tracks 5 & 7
• Guest vocalist Roxy Lombard on track 6

• Track 1-4 & 7 mixed by Ruan Vos (Sonic Nursery)
• Track 5 & 6 mixed by Warren Fisher
• Mastered by Dave Langemann (Creative Native)

• Artwork photography by Joshua Stein, assisted by James Fraser
• Artwork set dressing & wardrobe by Wanda van Niekerk
• Artwork design by Joshua Rogers

Thank you to all my incredible friends & family for supporting this and for believing/dreaming with me.

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Sold Ash Cape Town, South Africa

Sold Ash is the experimental/post-punk/psych rock musical brainchild of Cape Town-based producer/musician/engineer Ruan Vos that was founded in 2019.

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